Tuesday, August 26, 2008
today weather is damn cooling.. hahas. had my prelim english n social studies paper today.. erm.. the difficulty level is still alright.. n in the examination hall today.. i realised dat my dm is quite charismatic.. hahs. oh crap.. duno why i have this feeling.. hmm.. maybe she have her own principles to follow.. so dats why she was so charming.. hahas.. finished my exams n was trying to get back my hp n i wanted to depend on my fate wif mr chong.. if i can c him.. i shall ask for my hp.. hahas. but too bad.. i didn c him. okay.. so went to srg central to have lunch.. ate ban mian.. omg.. it was heaven... first time of duno how many days since i last eat meat.. erm.. actually not so kua zhang nah.. hahas. went to compass point library to study with jiwei.. n we r toking bout ppl who r hypocrites n how wicked they can be to get wad they want.. dis kind of person is highly dangerous.. hahas.
hmm.. saw many cute children at the children study corner.. n dere was dis baby boy.. he was seriously damn cute.. he can be sitting quietly on a chair for a moment.. n suddenly fall down from it at the other moment.. hahas.. so cute.. n he keep looking at us.. his actions n everything had distracted me from my books.. wah.. if he is a teenager.. i will surely fall in love with him.. hahas. but dat was impossible nah.. went home at 4.. cos jiwei have tuition at 4.30.. on the way to lrt.. saw xiaoalan.. n of cos he was busy chatting n playing wif his frens.. went home.. bath n slp for awhile.. suddenly.. it seems like it was going to rain while i was sleeping.. n i couldn wake up n cant open my eyes as well... omg.. okay.. finally wake up n rush for my tuition.. waiting for my beloved to call me.. quickly walked home.. hoping dat i can get home in time so dat i could call him.. n once again.. my hp went bonkers.. fcuk.. hais.. sadded lah.. nvm.. called my beloved n chatted awhile..
realised many things dat had make me feel sad.. really very sad.. i hadn been so sad for a long time.. i feel dat i shouldnt noe bout the past at all.. cos let me tell u dis.. it does bother me seriously.. i cant jus fcuk care it.. if i can.. it will be the day dat u r not my most beloved.. if i wan.. u will not be very impt to me.. u kept on saying dat i had many frens.. but u cant deny the fact dat u had many frens as well. i will be bothered by everything bout u once i had fallen deep in love wif u.. i was quite happy at first.. but i had heard smth dat makes me feel rather displeased.. okay.. i had nth to say bout it.. n had to admit it since u say so.. i think i will noe wad to do if i love u no more.. btw.. i feel like deleting my acc.. everything is being really fcuked up in my life.. i dont wan to be controlled by anything already.. feel very angry at dis moment.. i jus wan to do anything i like.. okay.. i shall jus fcuk care everything.. pms alert.. everyone jus shoo.. leave me alone.. i dun wan to be a person dats gd as i think dat no matter how gd i m.. i will still be hurt someday..
trance rocks !
Monday, August 25, 2008
hmm. i m bored n tired of everything.. no mood to study although i can still stuff some things into my small brain.. hahas.
watched meet dave on the net ytd nite.. n it seriously was damn funny.. erm.. i guess i m the only person will do dis when tml is my prelim.. haiyoh.. sadded.. no hp.. nvm.. trying to cheer myself up..but actually is nth nah.. jus not used to the peace dat i m having now.. but i guess everything will be over very quickly becos after my prelim.. r my revision time n follow by my o lvls.. i guess time will fly bah.. suddenly feel like going to sentosa.. n i seriously do have many things dat i wan to do.. i wan to go on holidays.. work.. clubbings wif my lovely frens.. n get everything dat i wan.
but before i m able to get all these wonderful things.. i guess have to face some punishments yeah.. sucks.. i think i deserve it.. n it seriously will make me kick away my bad habit.. n it will be a great thing.. cos i wun spoil my image n save money as well. dun u think dat smokers especially gals spoil their image.. i think those pretty babes dressed in office wear do look pretty.. however.. they ruined their image by holding a lighted cig.. okay..
anyway.. looking forward to dis cuming weekend.. cos i will be buying many stuffs for my beloved.. hahas. going to fetch him as well.. think he will be damn elated to c dat i had bought him lots of his fav food.. duno why.. dis morning suddenly felt so threatened by somebody.. n no sense of security as well. tot i will be abandoned sooner or later.. feel like sending my beloved a msg to tell him how i was feeling.. but dun think wan to let him noe bah.. cos i can noe wad reply is he going to give me.. hmm. trying to study in front of my com.. n suddenly.. duno why my hand had took controlled of everything n had went to look for somebody profile.. n found it.. hahas. okay... not bad looking. got many things running wild in my head.. n forget it..
hmm.. my caiyan boyfren is damn bad.. keep laughing at me.. argh ! tok to her till wan to cry liao lah.. laugh at me den say i poor thing.. argh.. nvm.. i m a peacemaker.. hahs. so wun be angry easily.. hees..
okay.. going to study liao.. =) wish me good luck for my exams...
trance rocks !
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
OMG ! today was damn unlucky.. hais.. having geog lesson in class n suddenly a teacher came to look for me..
i was asked to bring my bag n pencil case out.. okay.. i was shivering cos i knew smth bad was going to happen. actually it was alright.. dere is smth which i dun wan to tok bout it on blog.. n i had to write my statement.. had to follow my form teacher from wed to fri.. which can be consider as a good thing.. cos i suck in physics.. got anything can ask her.. got 12 demerit.. hp confiscated.. until o lvl end.. hais.. nobody can contact me until my o lvl ends.. it can be considered as a good thing but troublesome.. hahas. okay.. oh.. nid to serve one wk cwo as well. WHAT THE HELL ?!?! argh.. angry.. nvm.. saw my mother in sch n i cried when i c her.. i feel dat i had let her down.. no lah.. of cos is not dat serious.. hahas. took cab home with her.. n no hp.. shag.. no songs.. no hp is okay for me.. but no music is like no life okay.. sian.. n had some jokes with her on the way home.. n she can really laugh out loud wors.. quite funny actually.. cos i said i m chao lao enuff to do some things n of cos i pinpointed her when we say until smth.. lols.. some ppl will understand what i m saying..
galfren.. dun be upset.. is not ur fault.. i noe u dun mean it n let it happen jus liddat. i noe u will be feeling upset like me.. dun worry.. cheer up.. although i noe i m crying like hell jus now.. smile.. i dun blame u for anything.. no hp use is okay for me.. kicking away the habit is smth i intend to do so n which i should have done it long ago. dun blame urself..
hmm.. i really feel upset.. becos i didn listen to my beloved advice.. n i noe i had make many ppl to be disappointed in me.. wth.. suddenly feel like crying again. hais.. beloved.. i m sorry.. u will find it hard to contact me liao le.. jus now in sch.. i keep crying cos i duno how to explain for the things i do.. maybe i find it hard to communicate with teachers.. i seriously want to change.. n i m quite happy that the teachers trust me.. maybe becos i was crying like hell..? okay.. nvm.. not going to go out.. n intend to get good results for my o lvl to prove to them. hmph.. den dun wan to let them despise me.. n oh.. realise ms ow is quite nice as well.. becos she can c dat maybe i really do wan to change.. n she scolded me for keep crying.. she is quite nice to me loh.. maybe i do things that r to her liking.. ? cos i straight away give her the things dat she wan when she asked for it.. hmm. liddat of cos she wun angry rite ? lmao.. okay.. the thing dat i dun wan it to happen will be regarding hsa.. okay.. everything will be over soon. there will be rainbow after a heavy rain with a bright sun behind the dark clouds.. i will be fine.. i m sory for everything.. changing for the better.. n i had promised.. cheerios.. tml will be a better day than today.. certainly will be though i noe dat it is just a little better.. hope nobody will gif me dat kind of looks which i hated !
trance rocks !
Monday, August 18, 2008
boos.. yeahh.. sweet 16 finally. n i m quite happy on the weekend.. n the happiest thing is dat i got three pages birthday wishes of comments in frenster.. wahahas. okay.. next time den tell u all bout the celebration. i m tired.. xp.. chatting on phone wif my beloved.. hahas..
okay.. can continue wif my posting on the celebrations le.. went to sch on fri.. n yimin was the first one to give me bday presents.. hahas she gave me sweets n pigs.. erm.. den follow by a monsoon shades from weiling.. yitong. yihang.. yimei n jiwei.. hmm. thanks.. love them lots.. n yanchang. anthia gave me a pig with my name on it.. okay..
the next day which is a sat.. went to ps.. meet eric my buddy n meet ao sheng dere too. hahas.. ooh.. my galfren n jeslyne gave me a surprise by meeting me late n smashing me with cakes.. erm.. den went to eat subway n catch a movie call space chimp.. it was quite cute.. hees.. n on sunday which wad my actual birthday.. went out with my beloved n we watched 12 lotus.. not a bad movie.. okay.. so i got it wrong.. zhengyong was acting in it instead of money no enuff.. hees.. so paiseh. okay.. went home.. n fall aslp..
thanks for all the bday wishes that i had received.. whether izzit thru face to face or frenster or smses..
trance rocks !
Monday, August 11, 2008
it's been quite long since i last blog. hahas. hmm. so fri i went to hg n slack. acc my dear sister c dentist. cos his gum was bleeding. he scared he got gum disease or wad luh. kip nagging dis n dat. hahs. he is always so crappy. went to lan shop n slack. n it was really very bored. i rest my head on my table n stupid sister keep disturb me. lols. okay. went hg pt meet my father n heard smth dat make me felt unhappy. okay.. so wad if i drink n smoke? it is the past. who dun have past? i already change le mah. wad dey expect me to do ? die den reborn so i can have a new life.. what the hell is dis. the adults always do n say the things in the past to make me unhappy. hais. forget it. sat went ps n saw many ppl. hahas. slack n rot. wanted to watch movie. but had been psycho by some ppl to marina to c fireworks. hahas. saw galfren at pc bunk.. chit chat wif her awhile n went off. slack at the foodcourt of raffles city n saw joker. acc him go buy food n it was damn bored. so went to catch money no enough 2 wif yq. heard many ppl zhengyong acted in dat show.. but i dun think i got c him. or maybe cant recognise him. hahas. anyway..yq fetched him home after movie n chatted on phone until 1 plus. went to slp.. n ytd the weather was damn cool.. n i sleep until 11 plus. ate my breakfast n went back to sleep until 3 plus. played mahjong wif my brother frens. tot my mother n i could win. but in the end.. lost 3 bucks. nvm. it is okay. n oni one person won. he won bout 40 plus lah.. wah. he was so lucky... n my bro fren lost 30 plus. he kept blaming me. hahas. cos i wanted them to have second round. but he was joking oni. nvm. today woke up quite early.. n i m not going to stuck in front of dis com for so long. i m going to finish up the reading of my sec 4 social studies textbook. i MUST do it. hahas. i miss my galfren n i love her. hope she will last long wif her lovely boyfren. =)
trance rocks !
Monday, August 04, 2008
wah. long time no post le. decided to post since i cant sleep.
feeling quite stress but alittle excited. becos first of all.. national day is coming. hahas. n secondly.. my bday is cuming. wahahas. duno wad will happen. i oso duno how to plan wors. alittle confused. but nvm.. jus let everything take place by itself.
n finally prelim is cuming.. duno why i m looking forward to it although i haven even quite started for my revision. but i look forward to it becos it will mean dat my secondary sch life is cuming to an end n i m going to another stage of my life. it seems to be quite exciting but alittle uncertain bout my future as well. nvm. happy jiu hao le mah.
n finally.. stress is making everyone to do crazy things n going bonkers soon. hais. everything will soon be over. it will become memories even if dere r some unhappy events dat took place before.
stress n stress n still stress. actually not really very stress. but i had everything plan out for dis wk. ooh. next fri is my o lvl oral. quite scary.. but looking forward to it. i rather let it fly pass me rather than still worrying bout it.. i will like to have fun end of dis yr.. n i realise i m having some abnormal behaviour.. becos i think my books had really become my boyfren le. lmao. it will seems funny to the readers.. but i think is the truth loh. morning bring them to sch. accompanying dem until sch end. bring dem home n continue pei dem. sleeping in the same room as dem. go out oso bring dem.. but of cos i m not crazy lah.. not to the extent of hugging dem to bed. i think dat will be the final stage of mental illness n can be send to woodbridge le bah. hahas. hmm.. cuming fri got clubbing.. but of cos. i m not going.. i m a daddy gal now.. yeapps.. for now.. end of yr.. i think i will wan freedom !!
wahahahs.. friday end sch at 10.30 n monday no sch at all. shiok sia.. think friday going out to get smth.. n i cfm wun be bringing my books. i m really not crazy.. stupid feifei. say i stress until i sot le. i wan prove to him ah. wahahas. okay.. dats all for today.. takkare everybody.. u all r missed..
oh. btw.. the things dat the blogshops (linked at tagboard) r selling.. not bad.. i will surely buy if oni i have money now.. but i nid the money for my bday outing.. hahas. =)
trance rocks !
